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Jenna's Story

After over a year of trying to conceive naturally, my OBGYN suggested we try IUI. We did 4 IUI cycles with her before she recommended we move on to see a fertility specialist, who then tried 2 more IUI cycles before ultimately recommending IVF. We proceeded with IVF and that was an absolute rollercoaster. We went from the high of a fruitful egg retrieval, to an above average number of eggs fertilized. Then we were suddenly rocked to learn on day 3 that our embryos weren't looking great, and that we needed to brace ourselves for the possibility of nothing viable to transfer. This was our first taste of what we believed to be absolute heartbreak. So naïve. By some miracle, we ended up having 3 viable embryos on day 5. Those 2 days felt like an eternity then. Only 2 of those embryos ended up being good for transfer, so we thawed and transferred one and began our 2 week wait. We were floored to learn at the end of it that we were pregnant (spoiler: this one ends well, don't wo

Katharina's Story

My Husband and I started trying to conceive in 2014. We were not having any luck getting pregnant, so in 2014 we went to the Fertility Specialist. After a rollercoaster of 3 failed IUI’s, we decided to take a break from trying. Bam, we got pregnant the next month. December 2015, we found out we were 6 weeks along at a routine gyno appointment. We were definitely not expecting to come out of the doctors office with a sonogram of our baby. We were over the moon, and so excited to tell our family!  A week later, I started bleeding. I just knew we were miscarrying. Sobbing uncontrollably, I called my doctor, who had me come in right away. They still saw the baby’s heart beat, and told me to go home and be on bed rest for a few days. I went back to the doctor a few days later, and the baby did not have a heartbeat. I was hurt, confused, and most of all angry that the sweet baby I already loved so much was gone. I wound up having a DNC because I bled so much and my body was not passing t

Tana's Story

“Wait! Are there two?!” “Yes.” I still carry some guilt with the initial thoughts I had at that first appointment. You see, I had vowed from the moment I got pregnant with the twins, (before I knew they were twins) to be more calm, less anxious, and trust God. I had a lot of first time mom anxiety when I was pregnant with our first daughter, I ruined some of the joyous moments I could have had with worry. So I was determined the second go around to not worry so much, I mean I had been pregnant before and knew what to expect. The moment the two heartbeats showed up on the monitor threw that all out the window, and the fear crept in all over again. How would I manage three small children under two with a history of PPD? How would we afford the extra medical bills? How would we afford double of everything? Am I going to have to quit my job? We don’t even have a car to fit 3 car seats! I started to cry. Adam my husband rubbed my shoulder and told me it would be ok and we wou

Jillian's Story

Mama to Cadence and Savannah March 2015: The soft movements in my belly stopped. Ensue chaos, confusion, tears, and heartbreak. I was induced at 28 weeks on a Monday night, and Cadence was born still on Tuesday. Her father and I held her, family got to see her, and we had a few pictures taken. We had a small funeral and brought home a tiny acorn shaped urn that sits prominently on our mantle. She continues to be a part of our family. May 2016: Hope and fear coexist as we find out our high-risk rainbow baby, Savannah was having difficulties. I had developed Preeclampsia and needed an emergency c-section at 30 weeks. She was born weighing just 1lb 15oz. and was immediately whisked away to the NICU where she would stay for 66 days until we got to take her home. Rainbows The traditional rainbow baby: I cannot deny the joy she brings into our lives every day. I take a lot of pictures because I always fear that it may be the last one taken of her, and I try to remind myself of how amazin

Rainbow Babies

The term rainbow baby is used to describe a baby who is born after a loss.  It is sometimes referred to as the rainbow after the storm of loss.  There are some people who do not like to use the term rainbow because they feel it implies that their child they lost was the storm and that the child born after is something of a replacement for the other child.   While I understand the thought process behind this, I do not think that this is what the term is saying.  I feel it refers more to the storm of grief and emotion that follows the loss.  It literally is a storm of emotions, including grief, anger, sadness, loneliness, and many others.  The emotions bounce from one to the next and sometimes random ones hit you unexpectedly and out of nowhere.  I know I felt all of these after our loss.  I also felt jealous for those who had never experienced a loss or had to deal with a situation like this.  Of course, I would never wish this type of pain on anyone.  But I wish that I had never ha

Project Finding Your Rainbow

It has been a while since I have written anything, but I am super excited about this idea.  I am sure some of you remember the rainbow skirt that I used for my maternity pictures with my rainbow baby.  If you don't, here are a couple of pics below. (If you need a great photographer, these were taken by McGowan Images) Since then, the skirt has pretty much just been sitting in my closet without getting any use.  I kept trying to think of some way that I could use it.  I then saw an article about someone who had a skirt like this and sent it out to other women who had a loss to use and they would take their picture with it. Thank you to someone who commented with the link.  You can read about the original person doing this  here . This is when I decided I wanted to do something similar.  Every since our loss, I have wanted to do something to help others who have had a loss/are going through a loss and something that would help bring awareness to pregnancy and infant loss.  Of

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