“Wait! Are there two?!” “Yes.” I still carry some guilt with the initial thoughts I had at that first appointment. You see, I had vowed from the moment I got pregnant with the twins, (before I knew they were twins) to be more calm, less anxious, and trust God. I had a lot of first time mom anxiety when I was pregnant with our first daughter, I ruined some of the joyous moments I could have had with worry. So I was determined the second go around to not worry so much, I mean I had been pregnant before and knew what to expect. The moment the two heartbeats showed up on the monitor threw that all out the window, and the fear crept in all over again. How would I manage three small children under two with a history of PPD? How would we afford the extra medical bills? How would we afford double of everything? Am I going to have to quit my job? We don’t even have a car to fit 3 car seats! I started to cry. Adam my husband rubbed my shoulder and told me it would be ok and we wou...
A blog that started about the loss of our daughter to CDH and dealing with the emotions of this. It has evolved into helping others who have gone through a loss or are going through a loss.